I haven't written here for 3 weeks. I am sorry! I have been busy and a lot has been going on physically, mentally and emotionally.
My total weight loss count at the moment is 41 pounds. Obviously, I am still working at it. I have kind of slacked in the exercise department and really need to pick it up. Yesterday, I went back to the gym, walked places, and swam laps. I gave it my all. I am going to repeat this today after I finish this post.
I went to a Certified Nursing Assistant Program and completed with my certificate. I also did my Medication Technician, Blood Pathogen (HIV), CPR and First Aid certificates as well! Thank you to my awesome grandmother Bunny Kozma. She has helped me afford the classes so I can go, and when I get a job pay her back.
Which is also something I am stressed about. I am lacking funds to get through here. I have to payback R, Rich and Nya for school, rent, gas, groceries etc. It's stressful. But, I guess I haven't taken full initiative to find a job here, because at first I wasnt supposed to find a job, just focus on my weight loss, but now money is gone and I have to look. But, I haven't wanted to find a job, knowing I have desires to come back to CT.
R and Rich have been fabulous and I have met some really cool people here. But, I miss my home. I miss my family and my friends. I hate missing huge things going on back home and I just feel really sad without them. I have been doing so well on my diet, and I have learned SO MUCH. THAT no matter where I end up I am CONFIDENT and POSITIVE that I will continue my diet and losing weight. NO MATTER WHERE I AM.
I have the right mind set; I am really wanting to do this. I love losing weight, feeling healthy and just looking better. Things won't be so different in CT. We go out to eat a lot here and I still control my eating when I go out and stay within my points. Yes, there has been temptations, there always will be, but I have developed a strong mind set and I won't falter it.
I am proud of my success and I am proud to continue my success. I love CT it has my heart, my family, my friends and memories. Nobody needs to be angry and disappointed unless I fail, WHICH I NEVER WILL. Have a little faith in me. I am a big girl, I will continue to make good decisions. I want to live a long and healthy life. Death is too "scary" to face, thats why I am continuing with this journey.
I love you all, thank you for continuing to support, love, pray and laughs with me!
love always,
STEPHANIE HOLLEWUD. XOXOX
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